So sitting in church today, listening to the speakers about how to make sacrament a better place for spirituality, and getting more out of it....my mind started wondering, and I pulled out a notebook and began to write this..exactly (don't judge me) " I work out, I eat healthy, I tan my skin, I use expensive face wash. I scrub my body 2-3 times a week, I use 20$ body butter lotion. I get my eyebrows waxed, and I paint my nails 2-3 times a week. I use expensive hair products and a 100$ chi straightener. I (sometimes) take supplements to better my digestion and body health. I do A LOT of things to make sure that I look really good all the time. I pay attention to the small details of my clothes and my expensive makeup. When I look in the mirror I see smooth hair, nice skin, a decent glow, nice eye makeup, pretty pink cheeks, and a cute outfit. But, what about the thing that is most important, what about the fact that I cant take my cute target shirt, and my smooth hair, and my Chanel face powder with me when I die. How much am I paying attention to my spirit? If I had to look at my spirit in the mirror she would probably have brittle hair, pale skin, chipped finger nails, yellow teeth, and a tubby mid section. If I took as much care of my spirit as I did my outward appearance i think the overall glow I'm trying to achieve by mystic would come naturally. I need to be paying more attention to the things that matter than the things that don't. I should be attending the temple as much as I go to target. I should be reading my scriptures as much as I read the Sophie Kinsella books, I should be saying my prayers more than I gossip about co-workers. IF I did these things, my spirit would make it on the cover of People Magazines most beautiful. Don't get me wrong here, I do go to church faithfully every Sunday. I fulfill my calling, and I say prayers. But I don't feel like I full fill my time and energy in the things the lord wants me to all the time. I am so very grateful for the opportunities I have been given in my life. The ability to grow and learn and for the lifestyle I so comfortably live. I have a husband who takes care of me more than I need, and jobs that have always given me the opportunity to buy cute clothes. But I don't give back to the lord as much as I should. I attend the Temple once every 1-2 months, I read my scriptures every Sunday, but barely ever during the week. What and how am I preparing for the future? What principals am I maintaining that are going to be instilled in my future children? I want to be able to look in the mirror and know that my spirit is as up to par as my outward face. So Ive made a list and I plan on sticking to it! Reading daily scriptures, praying morning and night, reading the ensign and church media, cutting down on some worldly things, and doing more family and church oriented activities. Like I said in the beginning, don't judge me, i write this to maybe inspire others in the way I was so vividly revealed today at church ;-)
